Sunday, May 13, 2012

Happy Mothers Day

You never know how much your mom loved you until you have children of your own. You never appreciate the "I love you's" she whispered at night until you get to whisper those words to your own children. You never understand that when she asked you to clean your room, it was only because that was one less thing she had to do before going to bed herself. You never understand the true meaning of unconditional love until you become a mother yourself. You never see the sacrifices she made for her family until you make those sacrifices for yourself and your own family. You'll never understand the punishment was truly done out of love, to help you decipher right from wrong... Until you have to punish your own children for those same mistakes. You will never take your mother for granted after you have your own children.
A mothers love is the closest to Gods love. Truly unconditional and never ending. Not even when you betray her, deny her or don't show her love in return. She loves you no matter what.

I'm thankful that my mother loved me and always will. No matter what.

I'm thankful that I also get to experience that same love myself. I have 3 of the most beautiful, compassionate and truly amazing children to spend the rest of my life with. (plus their Dad is pretty sexy so I think I'll keep them all)

Be sure to hug your mothers if they are nearby. If not, don't forget to call her and just whisper 3 simple words... I LOVE YOU.

I love you momma!!!
~your favorite middle child, Tiffany

Tuesday, May 1, 2012

Follow up

I had my appointment today with Dr. Skoracki. At first, his PA, Gordon, thought they were gonna do a wound excising in clinic but Dr Skoracki thought my necrosis was healing good so he opted not to touch it and let it heal naturally.

They switched my dressings to a different kind to help slough off the dead skin. So I don't have to do ointment or cream, just this new tape looking stuff with Vaseline on it. They removed the rest of my scabs around my waist, belly button and the right breast and found a few sutures that needed to come out because they didn't dissolve being on the outside.

They told me to start massaging my waist scar to help the scar tissue break up. It feels kinda rope like right now.

Finally, Dr Skoracki also gave us a game plan for the next (and hopefully last) surgery. A little bit of liposuction on the waist where my incisions end. There's a little fat pocket on each side that looks like a muffin top. Also injecting a little fat into my "armpit buttcrack" to even it out and make it look more natural and more like the other one. Lastly, lifting the left breast a little to make it even with the right one. It's a little saggier because it's got more of my breast skin in it than the cancer side.

Didn't get a date but from what he's said before, it's 6-8 months in between the 2 surgeries so probably end of 2012 or early 2013.

I don't have to go back to see him for 2 months unless the skin necrosis gets worse. He told me what to look for but said it shouldn't happen.

So, a good visit and I'm mostly released from everything except they said no to airbrush tanning. Booooo....
Guess I'll be a ghost for a little longer.